Tuesday, November 18, 2008

This is Who I Am...

I'm not trying to hide anything, I wear it on my sleeve.

I wear it on my sleeve.

I'm not trying to be something I'm not. This is all I've got.

This is all I've got.

I'm not trying to reinvent the wheel...just trying to be real.

Just trying to be real.

I'm not trying to say, follow me...I'm not the one who leads.

I'm not the one who leads.

Let me introduce myself to you...this is who I am. No more no less.

I am just a man who understands, because of You I'm blessed....no more no less.

I'm not trying to prove anything, it's all about the change. It's all about the change.

Yesterday I felt...weary. It's been a week or so of...stuff...life. I sometimes get bogged down with other people lives...the heaviness and the heartache.

Finally around 7 last night I knew I needed to run on the treadmill...for my sanity. "Running For My Sanity" ...it should be the theme of a 5k....Anyways...

God works through my little Sansa, I kid you not.

One of my all-time favorite songs came on (because I picked it ;)

It's a little one called No More No Less. I relate to the above lyrics in a way that I can't even put into words.

At the end of the song...it says this:

I hope you stare just long enough to see

the heart that's beating here inside of me

beyond all of the things you may think you know, I'm just a kid trying to make it home...that's it.

No more no less.

Lord, I wanna go home. Nothing more and nothing less.

I just wanna go home....nothing more and nothing less.

Let me introduce myself to you...this is who I am...this is who I am.

And I...sobbed...while running. Not pretty, I assure you. But EXACTLY what I needed to be reminded of from my Savior.

He knows that beyond what other roles people see me in...I'm just a kid, His kid, longing to be home...longing for Heaven. Seeking to fulfill the plan He has for me here...but longing for my real home.

I love my life...but I absolutely long for Heaven. And the fact that He spoke to me last night through those verses filled me with peace.

Peace in knowing that He knows the burdens I carry, and He knows I long to be with Him, and He reminded me where my hope lies...and of who I really am.

Have a listen...it's worth it :)



18 comments:

  1. I run to this song, too...and have definitely cried on my early morning runs knowing that I am helpless.

    It is such a comfort to know how he'd answer the lyrics, Let me introduce myself...
    ~ "Come here, my child! I've known YOU all along!"

    I'm glad you have the peace each heart needs.

    Have a great day, Sarah!

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  2. Something about this post jsut gave me a shove to do some thing I have been needing to do for a while.
    I so appreciate your willingness to be used by God. Sometimes in ways you mey never even know or have never set out to do.
    The song really ministered to me.

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  3. GREAT post! Real. Honest. True.

    May your day be blessed - knowing and believing that HE is alive and well in you!!

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  4. Wow -- nice. =) Thanks for posting.

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  5. Thanks for posting this and for being so transparent.

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  6. I understand *completely*.

    "Now there is in store for me the crown of righteousness, which the Lord, the righteous Judge, will award to me on that day—and not only to me, but also to all who have longed for his appearing." --2 Timothy 4:8 (Congratulations, future crown bearer! :-D)

    -J

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  7. I am so thankful for who you are, even when/ if "I saw that going differntly in my mind".
    (our favorite and oft used line from "Hitch")

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  8. I'm rockin' with you my Sista! The kids caught me!
    Thanks for sharing!

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  9. adding it to my ipod running songs...

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  10. This same thing has been on my heart lately - how happy I am here but how eager I am for there. You put this perfectly in words, so I thank you for this!

    Awesome song, BTW :)

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  11. It scares me as to what the video tapes can see at the gym... It's so good to crank it up and refocus on Him. Other's casual glances of me whiping my snot away means nothing.. it's good you have a treadmill :)

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  12. Great post! I loved when you said, "Peace in knowing that He knows the burdens I carry, and He knows I long to be with Him, and He reminded me where my hope lies...and of who I really am." Today I needed the reminder that He knows the burdens I carry! Thanks for sharing.

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  13. I've always loved that song...so glad you reminded me how much.. :)

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  14. ummmm... trying not to cry.... I am at work....
    these words are amazing and just what I needed!!! we should talk! like in real life... talk....*smile*

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  15. I love when he speaks through a song and really touches right to the heart.

    Thanks for sharing it with us.

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  16. You can never go wrong with Mercy Me. Love, love, love them. I gotta say though, when I need to 'take a moment' I NEVER think to climb on the treadmill...No I'm more of a climb under a soft blankie with a hot Mini Delight Brownie Bowl. :-)

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