I've been thinking lately.
Deep thinking. The kind of thinking that requires just too much effort to put into words.
The Bible has me thinking.
Books I'm reading have me thinking.
People around me have me thinking.
Ministry has me thinking.
See, lots of thinking going on. Lot's of reflecting. Evaluating. Observing. Analyzing. Changing.
I just finished the book Made to Crave. It deals with the food issue, yes, but it deals with other stuff on a different level as well. I may or may not have copied down half the book in quotes because it just spoke to me.
A couple things in particular just won't let go.
She says, "It's not the "how to" I'm missing. It's the "want to"...really wanting to make changes and deciding that the results of those changes are worth the sacrifice."
I'm not sure I've heard a more truer statement uttered. It used to be that admitting you had a problem was the first step to overcoming. From my experience in my own life and in ministry, admitting there's a problem is not difficult at all! We're fully aware we've got issues, it's the willingness to do whatever it takes, for however long it takes, in whatever way God says that we find the issue with.
1 Corinthians 10:23 Everything is permissible - but not everything is beneficial.
Seriously, read that again.
We live in a culture that doesn't like to tell ourselves "no." And, from my own observations of myself, and those around me, it is no different in the Christian culture than it is in the world's. Oh, we like to deceive ourselves into thinking it is. We've made lists of all the really bad things one can do, and we try our best to stay away from them. We give ourselves an invisible pat on the back for being such self-sacrificing people...but are we?
Who do we live for? Who do we live to please? Do we live as though we understand the truth of God's word when it says, Everything is permissible, but not everything is beneficial? Do we seek out His wisdom on this? Do we tell ourselves no? Or do we justify? Do we tell ourselves we deserve to indulge in whatever it is we choose?
I'm good at justification. Really good. Unfortunately, justification is really just a nice word for lying-to-myself.
I'm pretty good with excuses too. And very good with lacking the "want to" in some areas, which I cleverly turn into "I just can't" but really, "I'm just lazy."
And the past few weeks, I've become disgusted. I'm not even sure disgusted is a strong enough word for it. It's as if, through God's Word, the Holy Spirit has shown me the ways in which I've been deceiving myself...living as a slave to the whims of my flesh.
And I've had enough. Enough justifying. Enough laziness. Enough excuses. Enough of telling myself yes, when I should be telling myself no. I'm tired of it in myself, and honestly...I'm tired of it in people around me too. Because it's enslaves each of us. I can't make people "want to." I can't.
But I can live as an example of one who surrenders my own will, and puts it in submission to my Heavenly Father's will for me. I can tell you, that there is such joy and FREEDOM in saying no to myself.
Your issues are likely going to look different than mine. Or maybe you have no issues at all *this is where I cough out the word denial under my breath* But, because I haven't already disclosed enough to you...I'll give you the truth I'm now speaking to myself. The little bit I like to call..
You do not need so much sugar.
You are not too tired to get your butt up and run.
You do not need a snack...or ten snacks.
You are not too busy to spend time with God.
You get the idea.
And if you have issues with food, or issues with telling yourself "no" when you need to, I whole heartedly recommend Made to Crave...and this is most definitely not a paid for recommendation ;)
Anyone else out there in desperate need of telling themselves NO?
Monday, March 28, 2011
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
With my first two boys, I went to Sears or JCPenney's religiously to get their pictures taken. It was the most "professional" we could afford at the time.
Which makes me smile now.
The third son also had his fair share of the "professional" photo shoots, mostly so that I could avoid the pitfall of "the third child who has no pictures" kinda deal. But by this time, the miracle that is digital photography appeared, which somehow turned the non-professional average joe into photographers...which turned out to be waaaaaay better than heading to the department store studio.
Along comes number four. And she's a girl. She's never yet made it to a professional studio. Is it because this mama is too tired and lazy to mess with that now? Ummm....yes. And much smarter, I might add. ;) Because now, instead of heading to a studio, I have fabulous friends who come to me! Does it get any better than that?!?
Lucy's first photo shoot is here:
And second photo shoot is here:
And some of her latest, by my super-sweet-uber-talented-friend-Beth.
I know, the cuteness factor is overwhelming.
And no photo shoot is complete without sharing some out-takes. I love me some out-takes...as long as they are not of me ;) Vanity, vanity...blah blah blah
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
Sometimes I lose track of time. It gets away from me.
Like on the blog.
Or the month of March.
Like on the blog.
Or the month of March.
- I finished the 30x30 challenge! But still never took any more pictures. Ah well. It was a good experience.
- I've been sewing little dresses for Lucy.
- I'm back at running. Winter and the treadmill were not so great, but this week marks week 4 of running at least 3 times per week. It feels good to be back into the groove. I signed up for a 5k on April 2nd...which feels like tomorrow already.
- My friend Beth took some pictures of Lucy that are so cute I can't quit looking at them. Hoping to get them posted tomorrow so that you can all ooooh and ahhhh...because that's fun stuff.