I so enjoyed your comments and emails on my last post. Thank you. It's good to be understood. :)
Last week I had one of those weeks where I just couldn't shake my bad mood. The fact that I couldn't pinpoint what was causing it just made my mood worse. That saying, "If mama's not happy, nobody's happy" couldn't be more true.
It was even more annoying that I knew my mood was terrible. I knew it was affecting my family, I just couldn't break free from it.
Until this weekend.
It had been a couple of weeks since I've been able to run outside. A couple of weeks without my running buddy.
Months of remodeling.
Kids with sickness.
A husband, whose already crazy schedule, was made even crazier by working on the remodel.
I needed a break. But sometimes, amidst the chaos, there just isn't time for a break.
Saturday I was able to run outside. 4.75 miles of therapy. I came home feeling better already.
On Monday, it ended up that Ben didn't need to help on the remodel project, and a dear friend took Lucy for us so we could just hang out.
I snapped this picture before we left. Happy? Yes. Dork? Yep.
We got groceries, used a gift card to Subway, and then sat at Starbucks for a couple hours. I worked on my Bible Study, pausing way too often to share thoughts and other random stuff that we just haven't had time to share lately. Ben read his book, and patiently put up with my interruptions.
It's funny how something that simple...and short, was so refreshing. It was a gift. And a lesson.
God has hardwired me a certain way and I need to be aware of it, before the "Sarah that no one wants to be around including myself" emerges.
- I need to run. Physically and mentally I need it.
- I need a break from my kids. I love them dearly, but the constant-ness of it all can be overwhelming.
- I need time alone with my husband. Even if it's just a few hours.
- I need to not live on a diet of sugar alone.
I made a pact with Ben. I told him he needs to help remind me of these things, BEFORE I end up in the place I was last week...the place of the wretched mood that won't go away.
You might notice that the list is void of the spiritual things I need. That's on purpose. I'm completely aware of the spiritual things I need. It's a lesson I had to learn and relearn a million times. I need to be in His Word, I need fellowship through prayer, I need to worship through music. It's my given. Last week all those things were present. And that's good. The above list, specific to me, was sort of God's unique personal touch on the other things I need as well.
How about you guys? Do you know what you need? Or, like me, do you easily forget?
I need internet too. I should have added that. ;)