It probably began last winter sometime...I began thinking a lot about prayer. When we would ask for prayer requests at church, in Bible Study, Sunday School, they always looked the same. Most were about physical needs. Some were about life situations and very, very few were about our own spiritual struggles.
And it bothered me. It bothered me that in my own life prayer had become about petitioning God for what I thought was best. Bring healing. Provide here. Work out this situation. Bossy.
I couldn't shake that nagging thought of, "Who are you, to think you know best?"
Because I know myself. And I know nothing about how anything is going to turn out. Ever. I make wrong assumptions, wrong choices, often with wrong motives. And yet when I spoke to my Holy God, I came before Him with instructions.
Why? WHY? There were a couple reasons. One: That's how people around me pray. We all do it. I mean, when the prayer line comes around to me and I say, "You got this God. Do what honors and glorifies You...and no matter what that is, help us to draw close to you and bring You glory." What are people gonna think?!? It might end up sounding like I am just in a hurry. So instead, I list out a few (not all) and then wrap it up. People pleasing at its finest. Two: If I just list out instructions, then I'm not responsible for really accepting His plan. And I think I'm in control, and that makes me feel better. Except that is doesn't. Because ultimately I know that I'm a moron and shouldn't be left in control. Of anything.
And then this spring I got an email. They'd like to know if I would review a book. And it's called Anything. And in my gut I know this is God's timing.
It's called Anything: the prayer that unlocked my God and my Soul by Jennie Allen.
If you want less God, then you will hate this book. If you want to remain in control because you know best, this book is not for you.
But if you are feeling that nagging-in-the-gut that you are holding back from God...then read this. I promise you it will hurt so good.
Part 1 of the book is called Everything Keeping us from Anything, and I read through that thinking yep, yep, yep. Right on.
Part 2 is called Praying Anything and that's the part of the book where the tears begin to flow...because the prayer of Anything is hard. And scary. But essential if we want to know the fullness that God has for us.
And Part 3 is my favorite, called Living Anything. Jennie gets down to the nitty gritty of what that means, and how (practically) that works out in our lives.
Jennie's writing style is easy, and honest and simply to the point. I adore it.
I've found that Anything is a prayer I pray, and then often try to take back. I often pray anything, and mean anything but that. I'm a work in progress, and two steps forward and one step back is still better than being stuck.
And Stuck is what I'm talking about tomorrow. Stick around. And say hello. Stalkers. ;)